Giving Life A Life
the first blog!!
Friday, June 12, 2015
Young Dreams!!
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
The Moment!!
Monday, July 29, 2013
Just NONSENSE!!
How typical it is to be in your senses for all your life.. why think so much before doing anything.. wat could go wrong by writing nonsense?? That no one would read my blog?? or i would make a fool out of myself.. Why care so much... ?? Why not just live the way you want to and not how others dictate you...
For once, lets forget everything that you have done till date.. Lets suppose... you are all alone in this entire universe... noone to rule u.. to keep a watch over u.. to guide u.. u have all the liberties that may be adam or eve had.. what would you be? how would you behave?? would u still think so much? be so calculative?
Try preparing a list of things.. u really want to do.. but just arent doing for the sake of someone? You have a long list.. Dont you? So why not do it? Y not for once be what we actually are?
Tomorrow if its supposed to be our last day...then y not live today??
Wow!! i did write a lot of nonsense... but i shall still publish it.. COZ THATS WHAT I WANT TO DO... :) :)
C Yaa!!
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Metaphor...
YoU never know wen life turns around...
Lost and found... sometimes underground
So much noise.. without a sound...
Seeing u go farther than far...
Deep within.. its a broken part...
No repair... nothing but a scar...
All my emotions that die...
They say... destiny decides...
But who cures d pain that grows inside...
Friday, June 07, 2013
Deceptive Time..
This time in life.. will it ever be mine??
I laugh with it.. I cry wid it..
it makes me rise.. it makes me shine..
its wrong n its right sometime
I wait fr it.. n I waste it sometime...
but suddenly it changes...
leaving me... its so unkind...
the realization sinks in..
I own it is my dream..
time wakes me up
to a world so mean...
it laughs at me..
I came... thought u a new lesson..
n now its a goodbyeee...
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Fear...
I Fear, Fear the unknown
I Fear, Fear the crown...
Princess... I am going to be...
I fear, fear the big bad throne..
I Fear, Fear the lavishness...
I fear, Fear the happiness...
Ruling the whole kingdom..
I Fear, Fear the emptiness...
No throne can make me happy..
No palace can shower me love..
I dream of a lil cabana..
With my feet in soft sand..
My romeo to hold my hand...
And say, he will forever.. be my man..
No fear shall grapple me then..
No throne shall take me to death..
But the king is blinded..
And hurt cannot be mended..
The fear is here to stay...
This time.. it shall take me away...
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Life..!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Impasse..??!!
Where's the Time?..
Where's the time
To meet someone..
To greet someone..
To hug someone..
To love someone...
Where's the time
To share a tear..
To feel a fear..
To hold them near..
To spread a cheer...
Where's the time
To lift a child..
To walk a mile..
To take a while
To gift a smile..
Where's the time
To help a needy..
To not be greedy..
To respect a lady
To live without maybe's...
Where's the time
To sit beside your old's...
To talk about their moulds....
To warm them in their colds..
To not look for their golds...
Where's the time
To detach from the files..
To attach with this life..
To push your soul high..
To thank God before you die..
Where's the TIME???
Friday, September 16, 2011
Rebirth of Bicycling
Thursday, July 21, 2011
The Game..
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Joy of Giving!!
The question is what's the point dude? He wont even remember anything when he is 25..
My mom pounced "Why not? They can afford to.. and every parent wishes to do the best for his/her kid!".. Agreed mom.. but how do u define doing the BEST?
She retaliated: "Parents satisfaction. You wont understand"...
Lolzz.. yes mom, I dont understand!!.. 'Satisfaction' .. Lolzzz.. Satisfying what?? Their ego?? Their Status??.. So that 'your' friend will have a PLANE PARTY for their one year old child? What the Heck...! Ridiculous!
Amist, all of this, what does your child learn? He learns to buy expensive clothes? or to display his high class attitude? or how to USE(read Waste) the hard earned money? And then you fuss about them wasting so much of money. Boss, Its your own bloody fault...
Had you thought him to GIVE at the age when you threw a 50grand party for him or had you made him realise how lucky he was to lead a lifestyle that only 20% of the population in India live, he would have grown up with a gratitude that would have stopped him wasting his life away!
I dont say, dont celebrate. I dont say live in rags when you have all the riches. I dont say dont pamper your child. Everyone does. They should! Your child is you Prince/princess. Give him all that you can.
But wait. Stop here and think. What do u want to give him? An artifical life? All material? Did you think about the JOY OF GIVING?
If you threw a 50grand party for him, did you make him give a 1000 rupee note to the needy? Did you give him a chance to feel the smile that spreads on your maid's or her child's face who eats what he wastes? or the warmth of feeding the old hungry man sitting on the street, while he lays on his soft cot?.. Dont tell me you dont earn enough for it. or you have no time!...
Go on..
Take him to the underprivileged. To the aashram's of little disabled children who smile despite of having no legs.. And he will never cry of new pair of jeans. Show him how they eat 2 slices of bread with milk and he will never waste money eating in a 5 star hotel!
We need to inculcate this in the children right from the beginning. Right from their FIRST BIRTHDAY!.. Trust me, he is sharp enough to understand what you are trying to put in him.. Imbibe in him the GOODNESS!!
Chuck the society! Chuck your ego. Give your child that will help him grow into a human being rather than a machine.. and he wont be too busy to care..!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Life=Symbols=Life
You are only a .(dot), when you come to life,
World is a ? the first time you open your eyes..
Living in a place @ home,
You realise your parents and siblings are your own..
+ and - they inculcate in you,
Accept things with a [ and everyday will be new...
School you go to, where % speaks,
Educate yourself to be > your peers..
College is where you learn to have fun,
You fall in love and feel the !..
The chase for $, makes you greedy,
At the end, you know, you have gone all crazy..
Use an & to give a commitment,
You have a partner for all sorrows and achievements..
As time flies, , (comma's) become a fight,
! is the stick, walking side-by-side...
@ Lonliness is your only friend,
World is a ? again, by the time you reach your end...
You were only a .(dot) when you came into life,
And .(full stop) is only, what ends your life!!!...
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Refraction
Struggling in pain,
Efforts in vain,
Feeling Strangled,
Life's entangled..Wanna break free,
Wanna start up new,
Passion awaits its way,
Depression has to go far away!A ray in darkness,
is what i seek..
I feel so dead
When i speak!Gimme the strength
to follow my dreams,
Renew my soul...
thts the only way to SUCCEED!
Friday, December 24, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Dejections, Rejections & Addictions!
DISCLAIMER:
This write-up and its contents might not be suitable for children under 18 yrs of age..!
I was waiting for my hair dresser to get free so he can mend my hair!(people who know me.... know why its called "mending" in my case).. How do i wild away my time.???. text or call someone.. no network!!.. So least i could do is pick up a random magazine n read an article.. that is, exactly, what i did today.. got my hands on a magazine, named, marie something( i never read a magazine... so plz pardon my lack of knowledge abt their names)...
Anyways, so, i flipped through some irrritating pages displaying various nail polishes n lipsticks n even lingerie's... n suddenly this caught my attention.. Story of a Sex Addict.. n the first thought that passed my mind was "Sex Addict" in a Women Magazine..
Indeed, it was a story about a woman who was addicted SEXUALLY..
What was interesting to read was this lady had a sad childhood, divorced parents, craved for love and hence, grew being an attention seeker. She found in her early teens that having sex makes her feel satisfied.. makes her feel SPECIAL!.. All she wanted to here from the guy is tht it was the best he ever had.. She had sex with 70 different men in 3months... Her addiction was her pleasure and her pleasure was her need... Leaving aside.. her dull mornings, full of dejections.. making her feel all the more lonely
Admist all of this.. she worked with elite class of people.. Most being, top most CEO's, Lawyers, Businessmen etc..
All of this was a part of her life.. till she met George, with whom things were different.. She married him.. and unlike the case would have been.. she was Faithful.. Loyal.. but soon was disinterested.. her passsion couldnt be satisfied.. she put on weight n had constant fights with George.. Work suffered.. It was mess... !!
She left George, shed her weight n went back to sleepin with different men and also not to forget got a double promotion.. Wow.. things were great.. as smooth as they could be.. except that she was lonely in the mornings.. lying on the floor all alone just wantin to b hugged n loved.. until she suffered a bad infection in her vagina due to too much sex...
Trying to reconcile her life.. her obsession with sex.. she found many men she slept with were already married .. who were never going to call her back.. she felt used.. just like any other whore.. !!
The article made me think... think hard.. just for the sake of covering our rejections.. most of us take up to addictions... but the pleasure of addictions are only momentary...
Every morning, like the lady, you wake up only to find more dejected.. n more rejected.. no matter how many cigarattes u puff or how much of cocaine u have... U R GOING TO BE LONELY EVERY MORNING...
Only you can help yourslef... ONLY YOU!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Emotional Whore!
A thousand questions in my eyes,
Feeling like a zombie,
Emotions on a high..
Was it all a dream?
Why do I want to scream?
I don’t think is all over yet,
Don’t you have any regrets?
I tried to fill in the space,
I tried working it all out
They weren’t just words
That slipped from my mouth..
Do you even care anymore?
How I feel like a used emotional whore,
All my love was just a play
U thought I was made of clay..
I m hurt within,
My heart doesn’t beat anymore.
But I don’t blame you for any of it,
For you were always the same
But the question remains…
Did I deserve all of this???
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Meri Awaz...
Aaj mein kuch alag karna chahti hoon,
Duniya ki bheed bhad se zara door jana chahti hoon.
Thak gayi hoon is haar-jeet ki daud se,
Aaj me apni MAA ke godh me zara sona chahti hoon.
Kehte hai log, mujme badi himmat hai,
Aaj kisi apne ke kandhe pe sir rakhke rona chahti hoon.
Kahin Udna chahti hoon, Kuch kehna chahti hoon,
Aaj is duniya ki banayi hui har seema langna chahti hoon.
Kyu chup rahu? Kyu na aage badhu?
Aaj aapne har dar ka samna karna chahti hoon.
Kisiki beti, kisiki behen, kisiki dost, kisika pyaar nahi,
Aaj me apne aapko pana chahti hoon..
Aaj me kuch Alag karna chahti hoon,
Is dikhave ki duniya me.. Zara khushi dhundna chahti hoon..
Success wid U!
Vision Unlimited
Time Limited
The Way grows longer,
Makes me ponder.
Hunger to achieve
Makes me percieve
The want for success,
Makes me restless.
I climb every step,
Without any fret
I know YOUR hands,
Will b my fence.
Stay wid me,
your hands clutched
Wid mine
Hold me so strong,
lift me up
and Make me feel proud...
Monday, March 01, 2010
Bossom to Arid
Season's go
Season's changes
Arid dangers
Same is with my arms
There was blossom
It was awesome
Heart was blooming
Lips cherishing
Smile melted her
Arms felt her
There was blossom
It was awesome
Now its arid
Arms are worried
Heart is only beating
Lips are'nt meeting
Smile looks dry
Asking her why?
Now its arid
Arms are worried
Season's Come
Season's go
Season's changes
Arid dangers
Friday, December 25, 2009
My first interaction wid the SKY!
Still lazying in my bed... Lost in my sweet sweet dreams.. Suddenly i felt someone shaking my shoulder. Too lazy to reply i just 'hmmmed'. It was dad. Faintly, i heard "Get up, its flying high"..
I just 'hmmed'..
9.15 am:
I went to the terrace... n i saw my dad flying a kite... First i was like.. Dad its december n y r u flyin a KITE??.. He just smiled and handed over the kite to me..
I had no clue wat to do wid it.. suddenly it started coming down.. n i heard my dad say"Pull, Pull the string". The sight of tht kite coming down was so devastating.. i would hv done anything he had said. And i pulled.
I saw it fly again.. up in the air towards the sky floating with the wind.. something inside me turned.. i enjoyed everybit of tht flight..
Dad thaught me various techniques to sway it n swing it in the air.. Such pleasure.. I could see myself flying instead of the kite.. The breeze was pleasant.. was perfect.. The want to touch tht SKY i had always dreamt of grew stronger till i realised the terrace was abt to end..
This is one thing tht u shld do in ur lifetime... TOUCH THE SKY!!!
Thnks DAD!!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Self Improvement.
Exams- Post Exams
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Zindagi...
Zindagi ek pyaas hai,
hurdum ek naya ehsaas hai,
bas ek aas hai,
warna sab naash hai.
Zindagi ek pyaas hai,
hardum naya ehsaas hai.
Manzile hi khaas hai,
saach se hi aas hai,
Mehnat pe Vishwas hai.
Zindagi ek pyaas hai,
hardum naya ehsaas hai.
Muskilon se bhadaas hai,
sikhi inse mithaas hai,
Antarman saaf hai,
dar ka nahi koi bhaas hai.
Zindagi ek pyaas hai,
hardum naya ehsaas hai.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Nostalgia... Ruch n Nel. this ones fr u!!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
To Perpetuity..
When we laughed
With arms open wide,
Only to cry now,
With no-one on my side.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Perennial.....
Where ever I go
I come to know
Life is a flow
Let it flow
When u r low
Don’t blow
Let it flow
Slow
Slow
I know
That I don’t know
How life flows
Glow n blow
Blow n glow
But life flows.
Direct the flow
To meet the glow
To reduce the blow
Life is a flow
Let it flow.
Transition...
Conditions Bad
People are sad
This is dusk
Dawn is must
Will break the rules
Blow the fules
Driving these mules
Fight the sorrow
For the morrow
Dawn will reform
If I perform
Sun will shine
On efforts shrine
Conditions improved
Efforts proved
Singing rhymes
People smile.
For the better
Rings the caveat
Control the chariot
For the better
For the better.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
A Tryst With Values...
You and success
Hand in Hand
I will scream
On this land
But
I Say, Its a dream.
Dream will come true
If I stick to U
Path is long
If u r along
You will guide
In disguise.
You and me
Is WE
Success is We
For Me
Here i See
Goodness Spree
Success Kissed
With ur Lips
You And Success
Hand in hand
I screaming
On this Land
With Joy
Lets Enjoy.
Urs Faithfully,
Saturday, June 28, 2008
My Song..
Days Pass by
Nights move on.
And i find myself murmuring the same song...
Its the song of life,
its the song of love,
Needless to Sing,
it just slips with a zing..
Yes, honey its the same song,
Its the song tht u left on ma lips,
wen u kissed me..
Its the song tht beats in ma heart,
as u live in..
A Song tht..
has no words and no tune,
still is understood
but only by me and u...
And i hope tht u sing the song too..
coz the song is incomplete without YOU!
????
If Life = Death.. then will this world come to an end one day??
If God balances life.. why are the rich and the poor not balanced??
If God made all men equal... then who are we to distinguish them??
If final destination is Death.. then wat are we living for??
If humans have brains... why cant they stop the global warming??
If everyone gets wat they want.. then y is hell always full??
If giving birth to a child is something so Godly, How is the mechanism called SIN??
Is 1 smile = 1 Tear??
If Love is blind... who admires beauty??
Can love be shared?? Does it hv Quotas??
Love can get u money... but Can money buy Love??
Wat is stronger... Ego or Love??
Can every truth be hidden by a lie??
Does truth always come out??
Why cant everyone just be haapy... if the soul purpose is to die??
Does God keep all those who die, wid him always??
1 death= 1 Life??
wat do birds tell each other??
How do ants communicate??
How do mosquitoes manage loosing their loved ones every second....??
List will go on.. this is one post tht will keep on getting updated...
............ Who am I??
Friday, April 25, 2008
Me = U, U = Me
I think of YOU,
I think for YOU,
The thing is..
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
A thought,
YOU are mine
Makes world shine
YOUR heart is a shrine
Its worship confirms,
YOU are mine
I am weak
You are strong
You are weak
I am strong
This thing keeps dangling
Leaving US mingling
YOU melt in me
I melt in YOU
Saying one are WE
Forgetting I and YOU
I think of YOU
I think for you
I MISS YOU
I LOVE YOU
To YOU
From YOURS
Sunday, October 14, 2007
My Everything................
I have completely lost it...
Lost it all, coz of u baby...
Lost it all, 4 u baby....
The whole day i be lonely....
At Every tick of the clock, i want to call u...
Talk to u indefinitely...
Ev1 though i knw, its insanity of mine..
And wen i talk to u,
Tears flow outta these eyes..
Tears flow.. yes baby.. coz of u...
Tears flow..... 4 u..
At the back of my mind i knw,
you will bid a good bye soon...
And once again... i will loose it..
I have lost it baby...
Lost my everything.. coz of u...
Lost my everything.. 4 u baby..
Yaa.. yaa.. i say those 3 forbidden words..."I MISS U"
And like hell i do...... wth every breath,thts keeping me alive..
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Monday, September 24, 2007
Tere Pyaar ki Shenai...
tere pyaar ki gehrai main..
waqt gujrega yaadon ki shenai main..
gujar jaayega yeh waqt jab..milega wahi pyaar tab...
bajegi shenai naye dhun pe..lagega aur bhi pyaar yeh jag tab!!
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Another creation by ma Friend!!!
Awesome .. isnt it.. if u can feel the depth
Saturday, July 07, 2007
MASTI KI PATSHAALA..........
A special thanks to that person fr giving me the right to do so.......
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When you go to college, enjoy it to its fullest. Take part in activities like bunking and related ones.Its OK if you don't attend lectures, but do surely meet your friends. Go to Cafe, canteen and sit there like lords of canteen or cafe; whatever you may call or you may have, Spend time pulling each others legs , but become his/her backbone when they need you.But, but ,but...with
all these things do keep a focus on your career also.
These are the days where u understand relations more deeply, the dawn of reality breaks on you and you should welcome this morning because you get polished. These are the days where foundation of good future relationship are laid more precisely and of course foundation of your career too, These are the days you enjoy numerous things but simultaneously you also get more matured, you come here with the fear of not knowing anybody but go with the tears of leaving everybody.
Its always said that history repeats itself but unfortunately these days never come again. You shout at your friend but the next moment you cry taking the buttress of his shoulder for no mistake of yours. It sounds pompous but it isn't. Actually the fact is you are improving. Both the individuals- the one who shouts and the one who gets the firing. The one who shouts realises there are other ways also, and the one who gets firing experiences drastic change. A special thanks to such a moment that brought us close and equally special thanks to the moment we moved away because until then we use to think this relation is precious but this moment thought us that this relation is invaluable!!!!!
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Thursday, January 04, 2007
why..............?????
but still i m sittin here.. juss ... dun knw y..
somethings empty deep inside..
somethings hurtin deep inside,
Dun know wat it is, Dun knw y it is,
but, it exists... n prevails in my heart..
Ponderin over things i hv been doing,
thinkin abt things i hv to do... naa..
nuthin seems to help.... the pain juss stays...
I wanna cry, but i smile....
I wanna run, but my legs fail to carry me...
Y.. Y?? wats it all about..
1000's quest. haund me.....
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Those who say GALS CANNOT PARK....
i think u better rethink... check out the link.. n all the gals... 3 cheerssss.....
http://www.funtoosh.com?mclips/play.php?id=women_car
Monday, December 11, 2006
Takin a ride on this roller coaster ride, enjoyin every moment , every rise n fall, i m proud of things tht i hv today... i love them all.. b it good or bad.. they r mine... n r precious. .. some of them hv come easily.. n fr some i hv struggled hard..
Relishin all the fruits i hv ......... i juss THANK HIM.....
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Ocean of Love... this for my dearest frnd... JIN.. love u...
Dreamin abt rains to come,
I see the Rains,
Friday, September 15, 2006
My Best Friend..................
Today I found a friend,
Who knew everything I felt.
She knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
She listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me,
Or tell me I was wrong.
She understood what I was going through,
And promised she'd stay long
I reached out to this friend
To show her that i care
To pull her close and let her know
How much I need her there
I went to hold her hand
To pull her a bit nearer
And realized that this perfect friend I found
Was nothing but my mirror .................
Payal...... Forever
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
LONELY!!... so lonely
Rehtey hain saath saath mai aur meri tanhai
Kartey hain raaz ki baat mai aur meri tanhai
Din to guzar hi jata hai logon ki bheed mai
Kartey hain basar raat main aur meri tanhai
Saanson ka kya bharosa kab chod jaye saath
Laikin rahain gay saath main aur meri tanhai
Aaye na tumhe yaad kabhi bhul kar bhi hum
Kartey hain tumhe yaad main aur meri tanhai
Aa ke paas kyon door ho gaye hum se
Kartey hain teri talash main aur meri tanhai
Tum ko rakhainge saath zeenat bana kay ghar ki
Reh jaye phir na tanha main aur meri tanhai ..................
PAYAL...... AS ALWAYS
Friday, August 04, 2006
anyone wid any answer to this question of mine... !!!
watever it is.. I cant help it.. as ppl will say.. just a few more yrs and the future is yours.. well.. then lets make our future... screwin up the present!! I think I m complainin a lot... wat the heck... yess I m complaining... anyone there listenin to it?? I guess everyone has the same complain.. lol..
anyways.. I better stop writin these stupid posts and get back in shapin my future..
hail teh exams!!!!!
payal.......................